Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Days 25 & 26 - Highs and Lows of Adoption

Yesterday was one of the best days I've had since I've been here.  Mom and I had an awesome day with Zane.  He's continually more affectionate and comfortable with us.  Yesterday, I showed him a new video that Daddy sent by email, and he leaned over and kissed the screen, not once but 3 or 4 times.  He continues to say Daddy a lot, and I think he understands who Daddy is.  Each time we watch Daddy on the iPAD though, he wonders where Daddy is hiding, and he ends up fussy and frustrated.  So, we take a walk.  Only, we usually run into a soccer ball or a football somewhere along the way, and Zane says, "Daddy!" again.  I'm so glad he loves his Daddy so much, but we both wish Daddy was here.

Last night, mom and I went with some friends to a traditional Ethiopian dinner.  It was at the same place Mark and I went to when he was here.  Only this time, we had three Ethiopian children, 15 months, 4 years, and 7 years old that made our time so much more exciting!  The 15 month old clapped almost the entire time to the rhythms of the music, and the other two danced their hearts out.  They tried to mimic every move the dancers made, even catching the attention of the dancers several times.  They were asked to come on stage and perform with the dancers, and they did so with complete abandonment.  It was AWESOME!  The music was winding down and the dancers were about to leave the stage, when one of the dancers asked me to go on stage....again.  I had to go up twice last time Mark and I were there, and I almost thought I was off the hook until the best dancer on the stage asked me to go up there and mimic his moves.  Oh my goodness.  I was (and still am) so EMBARRASSED!  This white girl cannot move like these professional Ethiopian dancers can, let's just say that.

After a late night, Mom and I woke up sleepy, but we enjoyed our morning with Zane.  He was as sweet as ever and enjoyed watching the rain on the covered porch.  We read books and visited with other children that were there with us.  Like clockwork, at about 11:55, Zane fell asleep (while eating) in my arms.  This has become our daily routine, and I enjoy it so much.  At 12:30, I handed him over to the nanny to be put in bed, and Mom and I went to Metro Pizza with the other families here.  In the afternoon, we went back to spend more time with Zane, and watch the Rowell's pick up their little boy, Muse' from the toddler room where Zane lives.  Muse' and Zane are good friends, so it was good to see him with his family.

As we arrived back at the Guest House tonight, I hurried to check my email to see the updates from AWAA on the MOWCYA letters.  The email I received informed families waiting for court that MOWCYA was working on July 4th court appointments today and that it did not look like they would get much further than that by the end of the week.  I don't know what to feel about this.  On one hand, I'm miserable, depressed, and so sad at the prospect that I may either be here without Mark for another 3 months or have to leave Zane and not see him for 2 months.  On the other hand, I know that God could put that letter at the top of the stack tomorrow and we would pass court this week.  I have no idea how to prepare for the future right now, and I'm pleading with the Lord to let me have custody of Zane this week.  Please pray for me as I wait the and watch for the Lord to show me the best path right now.  Pray that I would have peace and clarity about the decision I may have to make about staying here or returning home.  Any insights would be much appreciated.


Rob and Leah said...

Just prayed that your paperwork makes it to the top of the stack and you don't have to face this decision. What a tough one.

Kristyn said...

Rhonda K and I are teaching a women's ministry class this week. We just finished lifting you up as a class. Praying it all goes through this week. Love you!!!!